trying not to go insane ๐Ÿ‘Ž

Araina
According to my glow app I'm 8dpo but on my ovia I'm only 4! Not sure which one is right to be honest. 
We lost our baby on the 5th of July. Every month has been a waiting game of hope. 
I've felt so different this month but I feel like I'm doing this every month, on the 15th October I started having cramps and horrid back pain then the metallic taste in my mouth started lasted until a few days ago. Now it's just back ache cramps and heavy creamy CM. I can finally drink tea again with out wanting to puke...
I've done a few test... of course they were all negative. 
I just need some advice anyone in the same boat? Anyone just want to talk! Xxxx