Waiting Game!

Ahhhh FFS!! I hate this waiting game!! I've been so excited and have revved my self up to became a mum again, after being told 7 years ago that my baby had no heartbeat and had my baby removed. 5 years before that I had a miscarriage. I've made this my one and only time to try! As I feel guilty other women are trying and don't have a baby and I read some of these stories and I truly lay here and ball my eyes out! As I feel for them and their situation , I feel guilty as I have 3 girls my eldest 14 my youngest 8 . I wanted another but my life didn't allow me and I have felt that void for 7 years now . I also am 32 with POSD.  I really hope I am I want my boy so badly . I just had to have a vent . Best wishes to all you ladies out there.