Pregnant and needs to vent!

I just need to vent!! First a little background...21, graduated college w/ associates, now in school for phlebotomy, first pregnancy, 16 weeks, doctors said I couldn't have children because of health reasons but I guess God had something else in store. I am with the father of my child, first child for the both of us!! Usually most be excited about having a baby...I am very blessed and excited about my lil munchkin(hopefully I can find out what I'm having soon) but I don't feel happy at all! I can't work cause of school plus my boyfriend doesn't want me to over work myself because I was threatening a miscarriage for two months of my first trimester but I feel like I'm doing nothing for my child financial wise. He's a veteran(he's 22 let's clear that up) so he gets his check plus he works and looking for a second job as well. He always says "baby I got yall" but I wanna have us too. I'm always in the house I know it's not much I can do but we haven't had a date since I found out I was pregnant! My friends never invite me anywhere and only a few check on me...I'm always the one checking on everyone no matter what I'm going through and I'm kind of tired of it! I can't eat much cause my baby is really picky especially when it comes to meats! My hormones are everywhere...the most harmless things my boyfriend says make me cry, sex is horrible for me(TMI) I only like certain positions and sometimes I be in the mood but then 10 minutes later I'm out and I feel really bad!! 😔😔 my boyfriend always tell me I'm beautiful but yet I don't feel it. I don't have any clothes so I wear the same outfits when I have appointments I just rotate them. Some of my family members are disappointed in me because I'm pregnant but I think I did good and my baby is a blessing in my eyes! Sadly to say it but I just want my baby here, my body back, and to get away from everyone who keep saying "I'm disappointed"! I can't even really be excited around certain family member because I can feel the vibe of disappointment! 😔😔 I'm done!