what's wrong with my little family?....

I'm just about done with everything. I don't know how much longer I can take this. Not being a family and spending time together....I'm starting to think something's wrong. I just want to have family memories.....but it seems like it never happens....I'm mentally and physically exhausted....I just would love it if we would get together as a family for once and do things together. I'm so tired of being jealous of other families thinking how perfect they are and just lucky that they get to spend time together.....I seriously don't know what to do....I'm breaking down....is it always going to be like that even when our 2nd baby gets here? I'm just so lost for words....💔😔