what if?

It's been 3 weeks since I had my miscarriage and I still have my ups and downs about it. I didn't even know I was pregnant and I'm on the depo shot but I knew what it was since I've had one before. Even though I didn't know I still feel attached to my little bean. I always think what if? What would the sex be? The eye color? Stay strong ladies and know that someday we will all have our rainbow baby.