can't get pregnant

I got my period today.. and I am sad,
I've been trying to conceive and every time I think I'm pregnant I take a test and it come out negative 😞.
I am 24 and for some reason I really want a baby. It breaks my heart every time i take one. 
Idk if it's me or him. 
Or maybe we aren't meant to be. 
But I know it also hurts him even if it's just a little bit when the test comes negative.