Depression makes it way into my life

I have been TTC for two years on different kind as of fertility treatment and have had no success and I can't help feeling sad about it all the time. It makes it even harder when my brother and his wife are about to have a baby on accident, and that's all anyone talks about to me and I can't stand it anymore . Im over the moon for my brother but at the same time I can't help feeling depressed and hatred to everyone in the family sometimes. On top of it I feel like I have lost my mother whom I used talk to everyday because all she ever dose is hang out with my sister in law and when she's not with her all she does is talk about her. I started planning the baby shower and it's going great and was supposed to go to my mom's today to work on it but today is not my day because AF has shown her ugly face again. So now that I didn't go to my mom's to work on it she's made at me. I have no one to really talk to because my husband is a trick driver and is gone till Friday (yes I can call him but I want someone here face to face) 😢 the last time I posted about something like this (two months ago) there was a lot of women on here calling me selfish inconsiderate and rude not to mention childish and it only left me more broken. 😧