miscarriage vent

Today would have marked 12 weeks.  But at 8w2d we found out that the baby no longer had a heartbeat and baby stopped growing at 7w.  We decided to have another scan two days later for confirmation.  We decided that we would wait out the week and see if I miscarried on my own.  At 9w2d we decided to speed up the process with cytotec.  I had severe contractions for about an hour and then nothing.  I mean nothing.  The doctors office said it could take a week, so I waited the week until my next appointment.  No change in baby, size or placement in my uterus.  So the doctor thought that a d&c was the way to go.  At 11w1d, I went in for what I was told was a successful d&c.  Three days later, my surgeon called and said the path off report had no pregnancy tissue.  Confused as hell, I was told that this was very unusual and that I have a long cervix and that though she thought she was in far enough she hadn't gotten and of the sac.  After an US to confirm, I am torn between going under anesthesia again or taking the cytotec again.  I chose the cytotec with surgery as back up if nothing happened.  I thought the cytotec had worked with the amount of pain I was in and the amount of blood lost.  US the next day showed progress as the sac detached and moved down to my uterus.  Happy but not thrilled the doctor tried to pull the sac out but just my luck was unable to.  She did puncture it so I don't know if I will know when I pass it or not.  So again I was stuck with the decision to wait it out or go through with another d&c.  I've had large gushes of blood and large clots.  I'll know more Wednesday at my next appointment.  I have cried for the loss of my baby and am now very frustrated that my body is holding on and not letting me move on.  I have cried for my baby for 4 weeks now and just want to move on.