(THANK YOU) Disappointment venting

I use to say I can't let myself down but I have. As I sit and contemplate life I'm have failed myself miserably. I'm will be 28 next year, I have no job and when I get another job I'm more than sure that is will just be another job that leaves my miserable and crying at the end of the day. Another job that I will work hard at but have nothing to show for it in the end all the bills will take every penny. I have no college degree this is my fault I know but I just hate school. It's just not for me I did try it, should have known better I hated school before college. I have a child I can't give have the things I would love to give him. I feel like I'm cheating him and he not even 1yet. I never really wanted kids but I promised if I had one they would want for nothing and I was going to be the best mom. But honestly I think I suck at being a parent. Some days I just want to cry its frustrating never knowing what is wrong with him after I have done everything to comfort him. It is even more frustrating that I never get a decent night sleep and still have to get up early mornings and his dad sleep through all the crys. Like now after having or son all day. I'm sitting here wondering wtf happen to me. He is a good dad and a great provider but sometimes I'm overwhelmed and tired and just want to ball up in a corner and cry.

Thank all of you lovely ladies between church today and your words I can only feel up lifted and better about my situation. I know it will get better I have faith in that. I just have to remind myself HE not done with me yet.