Update: Heart in 1000 pieces
Update: Thank you all for your positive thoughts and support! I'm about a week and a half out from my D&C. Things are all hard at times, but I feel like I'm feeling more like myself more often than not. I hope that we can keep healing, eventually become parents, and never forget our first little nugget. Thinking of you all and hoping we can gather the strength to continue moving forward. We can do this! 💗
Hi ladies. Just feeling really down today.
Found out 6 days ago (Thursday morning) at my first ultrasound (supposed to be 10 weeks) that my baby stopped growing at 6 weeks. Sac was collapsed and no heart beat. Devastated does not even begin to describe it.
Had a D&C on Monday. I thought that knowing that everything was removed and the fact that I wouldn't have to keep dreading the day that it happened on its own would make the whole process a bit easier for me to digest.
Today, I'm just feeling down about the whole thing. I am usually a positive person and I hate the fact that I'm being so negative and I can't move forward. It's even more frustrating that my husband has been super supportive throughout the whole process, like gold star supportive, but today got frustrated when I started crying and asked me why am I feeling so sad about this. I shut down immediately. We've already talked about the fact that I am viewing this as losing our first born child and he's viewing it that way to some extent, but more that there was a reason this didn't move forward, likely something chromosomal was going on, etc. I guess 6 days is the amount of time that I was expected to get over it.
I know this process is different for everyone and I hate that we are going through this. Hope you all are doing better than I am with this and eventually I can get to a better spot. And eventually be able to have a baby in my arms!!
Comment
Add Comment
Let's Glow!
Achieve your health goals from period to parenting.
