So I'm at 38 weeks as of tomorrow and the father has had zero involvement since about 4 or 5 weeks. He moved back to his hometown halfway across the country and started dating someone else and we haven't even spoken since. Then when I was about 3.5 months I reconnected with this wonderful guy who I had gone to school with like 8 years ago and although being pregnant with another man's child, he has been nothing but wonderful and supportive. I am beyond thankful to have him in my life and never expected him to step up the way he has.

But at the same time I know he really doesn't understand how it feels to be having a child because it's not really his. I've always got this nagging feeling in the back of my mind that one day he's going to just up and leave and change his mind, and he won't have any obligation to stay because she isn't his child. Just having a lot of depressing thoughts lately.