TTC at 38, every cycle I think am preggo....::/

Hello ladies, I've been TTC for about 5 months and i find it difficult to keep positive ...I lost my first child at 32 weeks 5 years ago and now I would reaaaaally love to be a mum again .......each cycle comes with a new set of "possible pregnancy symptoms" and each time I crash badly...this month again, Am now 10 Dpo and had a tiny pink spotting at 6 DPO + cramps, first time ever....let's see...any other late thirties mom to be out there ??