is it normal..

Is it normal to feel super fat and ugly after giving birth? I'm 9 days PP. I feel so gross and I feel like my fiancé isn't gonna want me anymore...that he will look at other girls because I'm not attractive and I can't do anything with him for 6 weeks. He hasn't gave me a reason to think this way, it's all in my head I know it but I can't stop thinking it. :'(