Scared about things changing

Clarissa • Mommy to the most beautiful baby boy 💙
Okay so before I start I know things will change when the baby comes and I am SUPER excited about most of these changes. But one thing that's been on my mind is how it'll affect my marriage. I'm terrified things won't be the same anymore. We've been married a year and I did wanna wait to have kids but it happens! Now I feel we haven't gotten enough time to enjoy each other and I'm scared it'll have a negative effect on our marriage. Also, I feel I will be losing part of myself. I'm not the typical drinking and partying 19 year old so I'm not worried about freedom, I'm more worried that I'll feel as if I have to be someone I'm not to fit in with other moms. Making friends has been pretty difficult for me the last couple of years, because who wants to friends with an 18 year old wife, but I don't wanna change the way I am just because I feel I need to be friends with other moms. These thoughts have been driving me crazy for the past few weeks and I'm not sure how to deal with it. Did/does anyone feel like this?