Depression in 3rd trimester

I'm in a slump and have been for the last couple weeks, I can't find a way to pull out of it and no one around me is noticing. I feel like I'm drowning in silence but in plain view and no one cares enough to notice. So much resentment and negativity about my situation which I've been able to be optimistic and positive about for the last 33weeks, but these last two I've really been struggling. I love this baby and I know there's a plan for all of it that I can't quite understand and I'm so blessed for that but I can't help but feel the way I'm feeling lately. I hate that I had to move back home. I hate that I had to sell my favorite truck for a car that is less than par in general let alone in comparison. I hate the man who took advantage of me and left me in this position. I hate that I can't do what I love because pregnancy limits me from it. I hate that I'm in constant pain lately. I hate how fucking lonely it all feels.  I hate feeling so overwhelmed with the weight that's now on my shoulders and mine alone. I hate painting the smile on and having to be stronger than I feel. I hate that I can't enjoy this pregnancy. I hate that I feel so stuck and vulnerable.