is it rape!

I understand if you say no and he doesn't listen it's 'rape' or that he doesn't follow your consent but anyway I was with a boy a few month ago and he was my boyfriend at the time we were together for about 9 month but out of those nine month he was asking to do stuff like oral and he even wanted sex but I kept saying no. About the 3rd moth he fingered me and forced me to do oral but anyways I was at his on night and he walking me home to get the bus home but he decided to push me up against a wall in the middle of a lane (this was really late at night) and tried to finger me but I wasn't having it and pushed him off me. He soon became angry and took me a longer walk around a business park near the bus stop but he took me in behind a trees so if anyone would walk by they couldn't see us but anyway he bent me over and pushed me up against the wall i kept saying no I'm not ready but he didn't listen and I was so frightened I froze, i knew exactly what he was doing but I just couldn't seem to move. He decided to wank over my back and he was ready cum, he pulled down my trousers and put it in me and finished in me. I was so frightened I started crying I couldn't seem to shout at him or even communicate. As I was crying he left me at the bus stop myself in the dark and said I've got to go home love you but I couldn't say it back I felt so hurt and I didn't know what to do but can someone tell me if this is rape or just sexual assault. I hate the word rape because I feel deep down that it wasn't maybe because I loved this boy but I don't anymore 😔