Hi <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">Eve</a> fam!

I know this site isn't really for mental health and all that but im depressed. Have been for most of my life and it's gotten bad to the point where I used to self harm (been clean for about a year now! 😊). But I'm slowly slipping back into those darker days, I've been really good mentally for so long that now I'm going back to it and I'm scared I might ruin everything good in my life now. Also, my boyfriend of almost 10 months doesn't fully understand my depression. I know he tries but he struggles with it because he feels like it's a stage I've gone through. With my permission he's talked to a friend who was talking to this girl who's also depressed and he said it's just a phase most girls go through which obviously isn't the case. I don't know how I can make him understand, it doesn't make me love him any less, I just want him to be more respectful I guess when it comes to my depression and what exactly it means to be depressed. Any advice?