I got put on anti depressants when my son was 2 weeks old, they work. But i find myself quite angry at the past and little things. But try to push past, but then they just get worse!

My sons dad and i split when our son was 2 weeks old, he saw another chick in the mean time for a week and got busted. Now im insecure and just find it hard to move past.

My whole pregnancy his mum did my life in, my boyfriend told her when i was 5 weeks pregnant and that annoyed me! But in saying this, she bought soooo much shit within that week. Like she sucked the happiness right out of ourpregnancy! Its great she wants things there, because she wants him over night. Which i dont think she realizes wont be happening, until his old enough to ask or say no! Now call me selfish if you must, but this lady is absolutely toxic! While i was in labour, she texted me asking for money. Fair enough she wasnt aware i was in labour, because i didnt want her knowing. Throughout my pregnancy, it was drive me here, there and every where. Look after Lily (her daughter) so she could go dump on the D! She even told me father inlaw that its unfair that i dont drive her places and that i should be! Like f*** off! She smokes inside! She use to purposely blow it in my direction while my boyfriend turned around. I know irresponsible of me for sitting there while pregnant, but petrol isnt cheap to run back and forward daily and her lounge room consist of dirty rats that hadn't been cleaned for months! All that baby stuff she bought would be covered in layers of smoke and damned if ill have my baby sleep in that or be in that. She didn't even bother to come see him while he was in special care, my father inlaw asked if he could come in and she jumped the wagon assuming he asked for her too! Lol, no.

Shes a heavy pot smoker, complains she never has food or house hold accessories, but can buy big amounts of pot and NOT food! This makes me realize she isnt feeding her own child the right things or even feeding her at all, which makes me realize she probably wont even feed my son if i left him alone with her! AND then she starts selling gear because she 'needs' money! Oh i could murder her!