Scared of another disappointment😔

Petunia❤ • Army wife🇺🇸TTC baby #1 😧
I'm due to test on Wednesday but so scared. I have some early pregnancy symptoms but don't want to get my hopes up then get a bfn😔I'm in desperate need of a baby. Baby dust to me and every heartbroken woman waiting patiently for their turn, God if you exist answer our prayers please!