losing my family 😞😔

Ever since we've had our baby everything has changed .

At first when we met he had a lot of issues bc he was about to have a baby from another woman he wasn't with and I told him I was going to be there for him through it all ,. THEN. I ended up accidentally pregnant and then had to quit jobs bc I had a short cervix and had to be put on bed rest .. After the baby I've been feeling so , low , so dependent , so worthless , ugly, help less , broke , and desperate . I have no family close to me that can help with the baby while I go get a job, and his mom is taking care of his son so here I am not wanting to give his mom another weight on her shoulders.. I'm trying to keep him happy by having the house clean (although at first I sucked at it bc being a FTM and stuff was so hard to cope with at first) ...but here I am , almost a year later , fighting over the same thing and he's just tired I guess , he's telling me to go back to my moms to fix the relationship but I feel like shit going back to my moms , jobless , broke , helpless AND whoops with a baby.. Im so lost I want our family I want communication to get better I want is to love like before and more I don't know how to make things better .. I'm so broken inside I cannot live without my daughter and this man by my side .. I fucking love my family.. 😞😭