The Fattest I've Ever Felt

Just a couple minutes ago my mom made me try on a pair of Spanx for my senior ball dress. She made me try on a pair I told her I didn't like and had a mental breakdown while doing it. This is the biggest I've ever been in my whole entire life and it feels awful. I wish I could be body confident, but I can't make myself after seeing stretch marks on calves. MY CALVES.