tough news about our baby

Aimee
So a month ago my husband and I went to my ob gyn and he noticed that there was a gap between the left and right ventricle.  He referred us to a specialist and I had no doubt it would fix itself, which happens a lot with holes and such.  It's growing like crazy and I thought that if it's heart didn't work right it wouldn't be thriving like it is. 
Long story short...it did not fix itself. I can't deliver at my preferred hospital with my ob gyn who I adore but will have to be at a neighboring hospital that is better equipped to take care of our baby.  I also had to take a blood test because this condition (AV canal) is common with babies with Down syndrome. 
This has been a hard week.  It's our first and only and we are scared and mad.  I'm a special education teacher and see lots of people who don't care about their kids at all have perfectly healthy children.  I don't understand why this had to happen to us.  I know that deserving isn't really how it works in life, so please don't hate on me for that! The baby will have to have heart surgery and we are also praying it doesn't have Down syndrome.  It will change nothing, I promise. We will love it no matter what (and already do).  We just want our child to not have to struggle in life more than they have to.  I hope everyone understands that.  I know firsthand how amazing and wonderful people withDown  syndrome make this world.  I just also know the struggles that go along with that. 
Has anyone here had a baby or know of one who had AV canal?