missing toxic ex!

I dated a guy for 8 months and gave him everything, he said he was going overseas and wanted me to follow. So he took my $8000 with him to set up before I follow once my visa arrived. But when it did he didn't care, he went silent. Left me with no option but to leave him with a message and then accuse me from not being all in.  12 months on it still hurts and I hate him but I miss him at the same time, love is weird isn't it.