I'm such a mess

So when me and my boyfriend split up I was such a mess. I was devastated to the point where I was getting fucked all the time. I'd get so drunk and get off my face on cocaine just because I could. I miss him so much and I wish we could get back together but it's not gonna happen. Well anyway I'm starting to feel better and I've been clean for 3 weeks and I feel so much better. I know it's only 3 weeks and it's hardly an achievement but I'm feeling positive and onwards and upwards!