Ughh :(

Liss • Mommy to Leo, born 9/24/15 and an Angel baby 02/22/2021. Rainbow baby Eli born 09/13/2022.
I feel so depressed feeling that I almost don't want to take a test in the morning like I had planned. Anyone else feel that way before taking a test? I keep having slight excited moments but I tried to not over think anything this month so I haven't really noticed much that could be a symptom. I think that might be why I feel depressed is that I just don't think it's my month and I really want it to be. AF Is due either the 14th or 15th.