I keep crying

The 26th will be 3 months my mom passed away. I really miss her! I'm just laying here in bed crying. I really miss her, and there was so much we were suppose to do! Plans i promised her we would do together.

She died of lung cancer. Its almost like I am good For a little while, and than I'm not. I don't understand anything sometimes. I do believe in god, but I don't understand how he can be so cruel. My grandma lost all 3 of her kids. My daughter, and I are her only grandchild.

I can't understand...just this past spring I was talking to someone at my daughters school. How her father in law had lung cancer, and it came back, but he lived 10 years. I remeber thinking 10 years is not long enough. My mom was givng two years.... And she never fully got better