sexual tension with an older guy/manager confusion!!!

Recently I've been noticing him being a lot more flirty with me (or maybe it's because I want him to be) such as biting me on the shoulder/neck at work, getting me to sit on his lap and hug him, the other day he told a customer I was 'very beautiful'. It was what others had told me that made me notice like 'as soon as your 18, you'll defo get together' and they've even said to him in front of me ' 5 months until you can stick it in her' as I was saying 5 months until my 18th! The other day a colleague said both of you stop flirting and he is the type of guy to retaliate and say oh shut up, I could be her dad etc. but neither of us said anything back I just looked at him awkwardly whilst he gave me this cheeky smile back and it made my belly do somersaults😍

Even a customer asked us the other day if I was his girl as he stood there with his arm round me. 

All of these things have added up and now I just gagging for it. I just look at him or touch him and can instantly feel him touching me in my head and then I'm just so wet for him as I imagine him showing me 'how it's done properly' in his words. The only issue is that he's 32 so 15 years older than me😳 I want to go there so bad and I'm begging for him to flirt with me or tease me but I can't say anything to him although he always tells me to be confident and just tell the guy how I feel but if I told him then I'm worried things would be awkward and the relationship we currently have would be ruined.

I just find myself thinking about him all the time and I'm not sure if it's the fact that he's so much older and so much manliest that is attractive and turning me on or the fact that we both know this is a no go situation but are pushing for it anyway! I don't even know if he is thinking that way or if it's just me wanting it to be, I'm so confused😔