?Him?😬

He's my best friend (if you have been reading my posts you know who I'm talking about) i seriously CANNOT live with out him... He's not just a crush he's my one,only,and first love.. Last summer he tried to kill himself I was heartbroken so I texted him and made him sear not to ever do it again, he said "ok" ... Resently my friend broke up with him hes single and very flirty, but he's just LIKE THAT I wanna try to step up a level but I DONT want to risk our friendship... Don't get me wrong I'm very confident about the way I look, that's not the problem I just.... I just don't know it's really hard to talk to him now cause we don't have any classes together the only time we talk is after math.... What do I do??!😬😬😢