Me n my bf of 3 years just broke up...

So let me give you a little background of this relationship.. We started dating when he was 18, I was 15, turning 16.. Well now he is 21 and im 18, about to be 19 in a month..

Our relationship started out great! We never got tired of each other, we loved each others company, we both felt comfortable with each other..

But abouuuuut 5 months into the relationship things went down hill bc I was stupid and talked to my ex, but just as friends..

So me n him broke up..

Then we got back together, n it was an off n on cycle of breaking up and getting back together for about 5 months.. Once our 1 year came then shit changed real quick.. He became more controlling and manipulative.. And then our 2 year and he became even more controlling, manipulative, verbally abusive, emotionally abusive.. He called me "stupid" "dumb" "lazy".. He would get mad if I didnt do what he asked.. He would manipulate me by saying "you dont love me" or "you hate me"..

I'm not happy.. I cant look at him the same way anymore.. He treats me like shit and a maid bc he's to lazy to get up n make his own food or do his own laundry..

I'm just scared like since we broke up, am I gonna be forever alone... Will nobody love me?

I'm talking to this one guy.. But im afraid to be getting attached.. What if it doesnt work out.. He lives in PA, 2 states away from me.. I really like him n he really likes me but im scared this relationship will go down the drain too😭😭

Does anyone have any advice for me?😳😳😳