still doesn't feel real at all

I'm 5 weeks & 1 day. I don't feel pregnant at all! To be honest I feel like I almost forget sometimes! Is that normal haha!? I have an appointment tomorrow to get everything checked out because I'm high risk and a couple other reasons. I just hope everything is there that's suppose to be there. I hope I can at least see the teeny tiny chocolate chip. I just hope I am doing everything right. I just hate how miscarriage is in the back of my head all the time. Anyone else feel this way?