Emotional

So I'm battling depression from after having my 1 year old and I thought after a year or so it would calm down. Well I decided I wanted another baby so as of now I'm 6 weeks pregnant. So no depression meds and can't see a doctor till 8 weeks, I'm starting to get really down and it's affecting my moods and ability to be the playful mom I am for my daughter. My fiancé is supportive and so is my family but he started a new job and is still going through training so he has to stay away from us a whole week off and on and it's bugging me badly. Not that he would do anything to hurt me just that I can't have him by my side when I get this depressed. I'm scared to tell anyone or a help line because I don't want them thinking I'm a danger to my self or my daughter because I would never hurt myself because I would lose my daughter and this unborn baby. I just needed to tell yall this because some of you may be going through something like this and I could get some opinions.