Can't stop crying

Austyn
I can't stop crying. Can anyone give me some advice. I feel like I'm going to lose my mind. I haven't started bleeding or cramping. But the doctor said my hormones dropped from 54 to 43. I don't know how to make my heart stop hurting. I wanted this so bad. So god damn bad. Please someone. This is my 5th loss. I don't know how much more I can take. 😭