Lost another one again. 😭😭😭😭😭

Was so completely blessed but surprised before Christmas eve that I was pregnant to bring in the new year in the ER just to miscarried. I am so hurt again and the doctors told me by me being so early in my pregnancy that they didn't see anything but my pregnancy hormones levels has dropped. I am beyond heartbroken and devastated again about this. I wanted to surprised my husband about this pregnancy but I wanted to wait until I saw the ultrasound to show proof of a little blessing growing inside of me and now I can't. I'm in😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 tears because of this. I'm again on the verge of just giving up this time completely. 😭😭😭😭😭 This is my third blight ovum and I hate this to the core.