Having a hard time getting excited

I had a miscarriage in August at 10 weeks. We heard the heartbeat at 7 weeks and were so excited, only to be devastated a few weeks later. And my miscarriage was a horrible experience because my doctors office allowed me to bleed for eight weeks before agreeing to a D&C. I'm currently 8+5 with this baby and all I can feel is dread. I absolutely hate that I can't get excited. Anyone else feel this way?