letting go..

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I've been quiet for the last couple of weeks because not much has happened in my life to post about. I'm 38 weeks pregnant, due in 11 days and I must say that I'm anxious and my emotions are everywhere... as well as my thoughts.
I know I definitely did the right thing leaving my husband Ā , flying to the UK to be with my family etc. I just keep letting my mind wonder at all these what ifs and it upsets me how I won't be the family I wanted to be and somehow I can't shift the feeling. It is really getting me down and sometimes angers me how such a stupid man , who I still stupidly love , didn't see how good I was to him and took me for granted and is happily moving on already while I'm carrying his child.
How do I let go?Ā