The medicated cycle

Who else is here? Nausea, abdominal pain like cramps, exhaustion, nausea, headaches, reflux-y "acid" more saliva, food aversion, insomnia, cramps that keep me awake, nausea, fatigue that paints me to the floor and has me dreaming of a bed in my office... not to mention tearfulness from nowhere, irritability through the roof..... and it is all the hcg boosters and the progesterone pessaries, and I can wait a lifetime to test dpo16 due to booster, or test out and watch hope fade progressively each day.  I want a child, but trashing my life for two weeks every month seems different to that hope.  Well done all others for stoicism, and this will pass and I will flick back to sure I am pregnant or determined to make it happen in the future... but right now today, with the wrong dose of booster driving irritability I just think... really... it has come to this?!