Experiencing MC #4 this year - devastated.

 So, this is my 4th pregnancy in 2016.   I had a chemical pregnancy, ended 3/17 at 5weeks.    Then, got to 15.5 weeks, went into labor and delivered at home on 7/4.   This pregnancy did have many instances of bright red bleeding, so it wasn't a total shock.   Still devastating,  but not out of the realm of possibility in our minds.  

                                                                      

We waited a couple months to try again, per Doctor's orders. We got pregnant again, but it turned out that was another chemical pregnancy, ended 10/11 at 5.5 weeks.    

                                                                         

Fast forward to today.   I've been very closely monitored, and things have been going perfect.   There has been absolutely no bleeding or cramping, weekly ultrasounds are measuring right on track.   I should be 12 weeks today, went in for my final 1st trimester appointment.   When they did the ultrasound though, there was no heartbeat.    Baby measured 11w6d, so this apparently JUST happened.   I go tomorrow for a follow up ultrasound, just in case (more for my peace of mind, I know there isn't really any chance it will start beating again).   Thursday my D&C is scheduled.  

                                                                           

I don't know what the point of all this is, as I said other than for the healing of being able to talk about it somewhere.