Feeling depressed and alone

Well my fiancee went to jail he had court these morning well court system failed and so did the police escort and the other civil law connection to this. They didn't take him to court after numerous of times we checked to make sure he had court and then his lawyer wasn't notified neither did the judge or bailiff know what was going on. Fishy ya I think so especially when the lady that was booking him in jail told him not to be looking forward to going to court. My twins passed away on my bday (7/24/14) I also turned 5 months that day not sure how I would or could be happy on my bday any more when I was suppose to share it with my 2 precious angels and tomorrow is their 6 month anniversary and my fiancée is my main support. Knowing that he is not going to be here to help me get thru this tears me apart even more because he is my backbone my best friend my everything I can count on and turn to. Now I'm here alone looking at this pregnancy test and crying even more because its positive and I was going to tell him. So can anybody please help me get thru this and please don't be harsh I can't take no more pain at this moment.?