I don't know where else I can talk about this and this is the only place I feel nobody will judge. On December 14 I called and was talking to my mom who had bipolar. She seemed kinda down but her bad time is around Christmas. Anyway we talked for a little bit on the phone and I went to work. Little did I know that would be the last time I would talk to my mom. After she got off the phone with me my mom took a bunch of different pills. She was rushed to the hospital and they sent her to a bigger hospital. She had a brain bleed due to the prescriptions she took and was on life support for 2 weeks. I went and saw her as much as I could. In my opinion it wasn't enough but I had to take care of my younger brothers and I'm pregnant and was in and out of the doctor due to stress. On new years <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">eve</a> they took her off her ventilator and she was able to breath on her own and I was so excited because that meant she wasn't brain dead. Then later that night at 10:45 she had complications and she passed. This has been the hardest thing I have ever had to go through. I wrote this to tell and help people who have or are thinking about harming themselves reach out get help don't be afraid to ask. Find somebody to listen to you and help you. I'm not down grading my mom she tried to get help she called her therapist but she didn't answer because she was with a client and it took my dad 45 minutes to get to her from his work. She even called the suicide hotline. I just want people to know that no matter how down they are somebody loves you and wants you here even if you don't think so! Don't feel ashamed about taking medications. I know it sucks having to take them everyday but if you are happy keep it up. Sorry it's so long I just want people realize they mean something to someone and to not be ashamed by their mental illness. Your not weird or disabled because of it don't let your illness hold you back!!