Am I the only.one?

Victoria
My SO and I have been TTC for over 2 years. Within those 2 years we have had 4 miscarriages and we are currently pregnant. But, every miscarriage had caused so much heartbreak and distance between him and I that eventhough I am pregnant we aren't connected and I feel no connection to this baby. I have my moments where I get so excited but on a daily basis I always go back to the distance. Has anyone else experienced this?