I need to rant I'm just irritated 😒

Ladies correct me if I'm wrong for saying this but a friend of mine got me pissed off thinking when I said I wish I didn't get pregnant she thought I was saying it like my baby was a mistake. I had a tubal pregnancy would of been my first and no I never meant it in that way that my baby was a mistake. He or she was never a mistake. I wish I didn't get pregnant because I was hoping it was successful so I wouldn't have to go through all this trauma, with the fear of me thinking if I was gonna live or not, or having a nightmare that my baby was just thrown as medical waste, all the stress and me and my partner fighting a lot after loosing the baby, having my baby not live without seeing their parents, I didn't ask for none of this. She told me some women just can't get pregnant and for you to say that I wish something didn't happen is just bullshit and you got me pissed. I told her about how I felt and how I didn't ask for this and I'm in pain and I just want my kid back. She was like no women asked for shit to happen to their baby. Like okay I get that but what the fuck she's making it seem like I'm a bad mother. Don't tell me what you think on how I felt about my baby. Shit pissed me off cause I NEVER meant it in that way that my baby was a mistake. If you ladies disagree with me it's okay I say stuff that I don't even mean cause of all the stress I apologize but my baby was never a mistake he or she is always something special to me I'm not gonna let nobody tell me on how I felt about my kid.