So my bf and I were best friends for a couple years before we started dating in September. I moved out of state in August for school and he came up every weekend to make me feel at home. We're volunteers at a Christian camp, most of our friends are religious, and our families are very religious. We had never kissed anyone let alone date anyone before and being alone every weekend together things just sort of escalated. We've now been having a ton of sex whenever he comes to visit. We keep everything a secret and there's a lot of pressure in that for both of us. As far as everyone else knows he sleeps in a completely different part of the house and my door is locked or we always have more people with us. Whenever we go back to camp we basically have to act like we barely know each other. I'm 19 and he's 20 so it's not like we're underaged teenagers and we're always safe. It's just a lot of pressure to keep all of this a secret. I've had a ton of questions and no one to answer them. <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">Eve</a> has really helped with a lot of the questions and being more open but once I'm out in the real world it's back to being the "good Christian girl". It's hard to pretend to be a good example for the younger kids I mentor and have the exact opposite of what they expect go on behind closed doors.

Sorry, I know it's a lot. Just had to vent...