1st breakup?

i just recently went through my first real breakup. i broke up with him because i never got to see him. he only lived 30 minutes away but i only got to see him for a few hours once every two weeks if i'm lucky. i'm 15, he's 17. neither of us drive so we rely on family. every time he leaves it tears me apart. i cry every time and i have anxiety. it came to the point where not being able to see him made me lose feelings and just be in too much pain. he also had little respect and manners. but we talked about it and he changed. i'm so hurt. i wish it could have worked out. i don't know if we'll get back together. i don't think we will. the distance is too much. but he is absolutely CRUSHED. i am too, but i'm taking it better. he has been through a lot. depression, loneliness. his parents left him so he lives with his grandparents. he's been hurt multiple times. i said i would never hurt him. which was a dumb thing to say. i still care for him SO much. i worry about him a lot and i told him whenever he needed someone i would always be here. i don't know what to do. he's so hurt. and he's texting me telling me. i haven't changed my relationship status or deleted anything because i think there's a heave we would get back together. i need time to think and if i miss him weeks from now and it still hurts i know i made the wrong choice. but until i know for sure, am i supposed to talk to him? how did you guys deal with your first breakups. it hurts like hell. i just need some advice.