Sometimes I wonder...

I understand God does things that no one understands, but I always wonder why he gives babies to thoughts who don't care. Like druggies, or someone who would just abort them in a heartbeat. I'm TTC and I get so heartbroken when I see a pill head or meth head get pregnant so easy. And once they have them they don't give two shits about the kids...I find it unfair. But I'm trying to stay positive, considering god will give me a blessing when it's time but, it just kinda sucks getting Negative test ALL the time...I'm just so ready to be a mommy....💔