Feel like I got robbed during delivery

I had a lot quicker labor than expected for my first child. I only labored 3 hours and pushed for 4 minutes. I didn't have time to give my birthing plan or even tell them what I wanted my nurse also never asked me what I wanted when I was admitted. I'm a FTM and I was so scared I was on my own while getting admitted. Anyways when my daughter came out they put her on my chest but quickly took her away she wasn't really crying but she wasn't turning colors either. Then once I was done getting stitched up my husband was holding her then she got passed around the room then she finally came to me. I also didn't even get to have a say on who was there they kind just invited themselves and after a certain point the pain was so bad I didn't even pay attention to who was there I couldn't get an epidural because I was complete when I asked for it. She came to me to feed and then back around the room she went when they took me to the bathroom where I passed out and woke up on the floor. I don't feel like I got to really have that bonding time. So when everyone left I stripped us both down and had skin to skin it made me feel so much better but the next morning we had to get sent off because she was jaundice so then for 4 days I couldn't hold her because of the lights I had to pump and feed with a bottle so there went that time I also couldn't sit for very long right next to her because I was so sore. I feel like I got robbed of the bonding time and wish I could do some parts over again. Even being at home my phone gets blown up with people wanting to come over it gets frustrating I have not had a day where it's just us 2 I just end up going to my dad's just to get away from people coming over. My husband doesn't really understand why I'm so upset about it all. Now I have a 2 week old sick because my sister in law brought her sick kid over and then later told me that she was vomiting and had diarrhea I yelled at her so now I'm freaking out and feeling like a bad mom all I can do is sit here and cry I hate it I feel so helpless!!