how how how ? 💔

Hey lovely ladies , Today has been such a hard day me and my babies father decided to go or separate ways I'm on my way back home to Arizona as I'm typing he's in California and that's it's how do I move on how do I let go how do I fill this empty space he left me with me why can't I hate him and understand he doesn't want a family anymore how do I understand there's no love left how when I have all his love towards him he's my everything ever since I was 14 I was with him I'm now 21 how can I forget him how do I put up with my kids calling out for him and knowing he's not around no more! I really have no one to talk to and this is driving me crazy I have so much going through my head , I wanna beg and cry to him but I know it's not the right thing to do! I really need a friend somebody to talk to right now 😔💔