Job interview

Ahhh I've got my first full time job interview at a preschool today. I'm so nervous... Really because the reason I'm applying is so hopefully I'll get a discount if not free childcare and have baby there with me (because I want to continue breastfeeding but I can't pump) and I'm afraid they'll say they can't do that. Also I'm not ready to be away from baby and I feel like he's just now recognizing who I am :( and when my grandmother babysits him who knows what she'll be teaching him and she'll be spending way more time with him than me or his dad. Omg I'm jealous of my grandmother help me.

I feel like the only reason I'm doing this is because we need money. Badly.. but I feel like I'm sacrificing so much.

**oh and I forgot to mention that my mom and grandmother don't want me to get a job at a preschool because they feel like they won't ever get to babysit but I just want to have a job where he can be with me and I can breastfeed. Which they also don't want me to do.