scared to be pregnant again

Am I the only one who wants nothing more than to have a baby right now but at the same time I'm scared to be pregnant again. I had a miscarriage at 11 weeks, and it was the worst thing ever, when I went to the bathroom and had clots of blood falling out I completely lost it. My boyfriend and I have been trying since but can't seem to get it this time, we pray to get our rainbow baby, but I'm terrified, I don't want something like that to happen again 😫