looking for advice on c-section

Mrs • 27 married... TTC since May 2015. X2 M/C Aug 2015 and Dec 2015... ❤️ BFP Aug 16... EDD 09/04/17 👶🏼🌈💙
Hi 👋🏻 
Just looking for some advice from moms who have had or are facing a c-section. I'm 32+2 today and been told my baby is very big at 5lb. I have been advised to have a c-section at 38 weeks due to being diabetic and also having low lying placenta and SPD.
Iv always thought I pregnancy is something I would be good at but after two MC and then all these problems carrying my rainbow I'm feeling a bit like a failure.
I just want my baby here safe as possible 😞
I'm looking for advice/information from people who have been there and done it kind of thing. How was the procedure and recovery etc?
Many thanks in advance
A very scared momma 😣