body betrayed me. The post baby body...

So when I started my day in labor and delivery I felt good I looked good. I was proud of my good pregnancy. Water broke contractions but not to bad. Then everything started to change my body refused to dialated taking all day to get to a 4. I was tired and I needed some relief so I got an epidural. I was in my 12th hour of labor and the epidural did the trick I felt relief but when the doctor checked my cervix the baby had turned face first and his heart started to dip dangourously low which pushed me into a c-section. Baby was born healthy but looked like he had done a couple of rounds in the octagons with a black swollen eye and many scratches and bruises. I was upset and sad I felt a little cheated from the delivery I had pictures. But they worse thing is you don't get your body back everything hurt and the swelling from all the IV is very real. I'm pretty sure every inch of me is puffed up like a balloon. I still look super pregnant and with the incisions I'm just as uncomfortable doing every thing. That's my rant but looking at my baby makes everything else look irrelevant and I hope I can get my body back some day.